Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Christmas Memories

I'm trying desperately to hold on to the wonderful memories that we made as a family in order to get through the pain of missing Bill and Patrick this Christmas. Trust me, it's harder than it sounds!

Bill alway called me his Christmas woman! It sounds sweet but sometimes I think he thought I got carried away. One year I was so disappointed that he and Patrick would be playing in a baseball tournament and wouldn't be able to put up Christmas lights on the house. What I didn't know is that while I was away visiting with Grandma, Bill and Patrick were really decking the house out! I came home with Grandma in the car for her regular stay and WOW, the house looked beautiful! (The photo doesn't do it justice) Bill even used a lift to put lights on the very top of the house! I was completely enchanted!


10yearstogether said...

Debi, I can only imagine the feelings that you must be experiencing during these holidays. All I can say is that I'm praying for you and your family, and I hope you are able to see the light and blessings that you do have, like your beautiful grandbabies, to get you through the difficult times. Gorgeous lights, by the way!

The Estes Family said...

I was happy to see you post again. I just said a prayer for you and Erynn as I know this is such a hard time for you guys!! Imagine the Christmas Bill and Patrick are having in Heaven with our Savior!! I can only imagine! I do pray for some kind of peace for you all!!

avgypsy said...

Awwwww! That warms my heart knowing how Bill was always looking for ways to *love you up!* You will have so many wonderful stories to tell him when you are reunited again! Hold on to that thought and keep making those stories for the rest of your life! You were my first born of three and no one wishes this hurting on their children. x0x0x0

Jasmine said...

Whenever I read Erynn's posts about memories of your son, I always think, "What a wonderful and caring husband he was!" And then, to also read about your memories . . . well, it is obvious - even to a stranger - that Patrick saw and learned how to be a good and devoted husband from his Dad.

I can't begin to imagine what you are enduring at this time of the year. I absolutely agree with The Estes Family above - your husband and son are walking with our Redeemer and King this Christmas. My prayers are with you.