Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Missing them

I just miss them. All of them. Bill, Patrick, my Dad, my grandparents, Uncle Dan, Jeff Baker, Aunt Marilyn, Maryann Shappi, Princess Dianna, Tim Russert and so many more. Death is a part of life. We will all die eventually, some sooner than others. I guess that's what I'm coming to grips with.

It makes me sad nonetheless. I can cry at the drop of a pin. Is that a good thing? Not really, what's the question when faced with death? It can't be meaningless! I think that it's hard on this side of heaven to accept the fact that they're gone but think about it.....if they believe, they're experiencing glory that we cannot comprehend. Halleluiah!

We can all have that assurance when we die. Thank you Lord! It doesn't take much. Just repeat after me: "Lord, I want to know you in an intimate way! Please come into my life, I want to know you for myself. I'm a sinner and I've done wrong and I'm unable to save myself. I believe that Jesus died on the cross to take away my sins and He rose from the dead to give me eternal life. I accept the sacrifice that He made for me and want Him to take control of my life. AMEN"

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Father's Day

My heart is breaking as I realize that Father's Day looms! 
My "Dear Ole Dad" is recently gone and my husband's death still reveals 
an emptiness that hurts deeply. 
Then comes the realization of the loss of my oldest son.........
he has two sweet children that will never get to know him. 
What do I do with that? 
There is a new Daddy now, which I'm thankful for, 
but I'm hurting none the less that they don't get to experience my son, Patrick. 
What do I do with all of this emotion? 
A new grandchild (Monroe) was born to my second son and his wife......
praise the Lord for new life! 
He's deserving of a magnificent first Father's Day! She's glorious! 
I'm incredibly conflicted! Life can be so bittersweet!

What Is A Dad?

A Dad is someone who
wants to catch you before you fall
but instead picks you up,
brushes you off,
and lets you try again.

A Dad is someone who
wants to keep you from making mistakes
but instead lets you find your own way,
even though his heart breaks in silence
when you hurt.

A Dad is someone who
holds you when you cry,
scolds you when you break the rules,
shines with pride when you succeed,
and has faith in you even when you fail...

Me and my Daddy
Bill and his boys
Patrick and Will
 Sean with brand new daughter Monroe
I know that you want to remind me of all I should be thankful for, all of the many blessings that I have. Yes, I get it. My Dad would've been the first to remind me of that  (look back at his previous blog comments) 
I'm just sad today, that's all, just sad. Tomorrow brings new joy, I know.