Saturday, September 17, 2011

I want my perfect life back!

I want my perfect life back again.........the life that felt so complete!
The life that I had that was full of laughter. The tears I cried were for others not for me.
I want my life back that was full of music that made me smile instead of cry.
I want the life again that was focused on raising a family and supporting my husband in all that he did, not this one where all of the responsibility lies with me. I want my simple life again and not this one that feels like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders.
I want my life back again where each day I looked forward to my husband coming home from work just like in the old TV shows.
I want the life back again that relished when my son stopped over and hopped up on the kitchen counter to share with me what was going on in his life.
I want my life back where I looked forward to being Grandma & Grandpa to grandchildren together not by myself.
I want the life again that cherished the words that I heard from my Daughter-in-Law, "I love my life!"
I want a life again that could not comprehend the loss of a child let alone my own.
I want my life back again that never felt lonely, the one that had so much future, the one that felt so full.
I want to have my life back again where at the end of the day I could find comfort and security in the arms of my husband!