Saturday, September 17, 2011

I want my perfect life back!

I want my perfect life back again.........the life that felt so complete!
The life that I had that was full of laughter. The tears I cried were for others not for me.
I want my life back that was full of music that made me smile instead of cry.
I want the life again that was focused on raising a family and supporting my husband in all that he did, not this one where all of the responsibility lies with me. I want my simple life again and not this one that feels like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders.
I want my life back again where each day I looked forward to my husband coming home from work just like in the old TV shows.
I want the life back again that relished when my son stopped over and hopped up on the kitchen counter to share with me what was going on in his life.
I want my life back where I looked forward to being Grandma & Grandpa to grandchildren together not by myself.
I want the life again that cherished the words that I heard from my Daughter-in-Law, "I love my life!"
I want a life again that could not comprehend the loss of a child let alone my own.
I want my life back again that never felt lonely, the one that had so much future, the one that felt so full.
I want to have my life back again where at the end of the day I could find comfort and security in the arms of my husband!





7 comments:

Courtney said...

I wish all those things for you. Hugs. Xoxo

Michele Neff Hernandez said...

Sending love to fill just one small space of the life that you have now. Thinking of you and SO getting this. xo

Anonymous said...

Debi, I am praying this morning for God's perfect love to pour down on you and wrap around you; to fill the void in your life, even for a moment, and to give you a future of hope. Your words are achingly descriptive, and the pictures are the perfect adjectives. They beautifully show what you describe. The love you and Bill share is perfect. God bless you today. much love, cathy z

Jasmine said...

My throat tightened up in sadness and pain for you as I read this.

The only thing I can say is this - I lift you up to the loving Lord, the Almighty, Who is ever and only good.

Praying for you.

Anonymous said...

My darling daughter, You have two sons and a daughter in law that love you so much and are growing into the young men and familys you and Bill wanted. Thank You Lord. You have more family that love you and will do anything for you. Thank You Lord. Thru this blog you have many supporters that pray for you. Thank You Lord. Maby this is not the perfect life you remember and want, but you have an whole lot to be thankfull for. Rejoice in what the Lord has given you and do not dwell on what you do not have any longer. I love you so very much and would do anything to take the hurt away. Love Dad

Jasmine said...

What a wonderful father, and how proud the Heavenly Father must be of his courage and of yours!

Thinking of you and praying for you.


Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful . . .
Hebrews 10:23

Priscilla - Wheelchair Mommy said...

The only thing I can do is give you a ((hug))