Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Father's Day

My heart is breaking as I realize that Father's Day looms! 
My "Dear Ole Dad" is recently gone and my husband's death still reveals 
an emptiness that hurts deeply. 
Then comes the realization of the loss of my oldest son.........
he has two sweet children that will never get to know him. 
What do I do with that? 
There is a new Daddy now, which I'm thankful for, 
but I'm hurting none the less that they don't get to experience my son, Patrick. 
What do I do with all of this emotion? 
A new grandchild (Monroe) was born to my second son and his wife......
praise the Lord for new life! 
He's deserving of a magnificent first Father's Day! She's glorious! 
I'm incredibly conflicted! Life can be so bittersweet!

What Is A Dad?

A Dad is someone who
wants to catch you before you fall
but instead picks you up,
brushes you off,
and lets you try again.

A Dad is someone who
wants to keep you from making mistakes
but instead lets you find your own way,
even though his heart breaks in silence
when you hurt.

A Dad is someone who
holds you when you cry,
scolds you when you break the rules,
shines with pride when you succeed,
and has faith in you even when you fail...

Me and my Daddy
Bill and his boys
Patrick and Will
 Sean with brand new daughter Monroe
I know that you want to remind me of all I should be thankful for, all of the many blessings that I have. Yes, I get it. My Dad would've been the first to remind me of that  (look back at his previous blog comments) 
I'm just sad today, that's all, just sad. Tomorrow brings new joy, I know.




Brooke said...


Brandi said...

You have every right to be sad! I'm so sorry for all your losses!!! Praying for you!!!!

Cathleen said...

There are sad days and there are good days...This is my second year with out my dad and this day is the hardest for me. I am remembering all the good times and laughter and that helps. Hugs to you today!

Jasmine said...

Mrs. Rooney, I'm praying for you. Grief is a part of His world, and we know from His Word that there is a time for it - just as there is a time for joy. So do not feel guilty for being sorrowful. You love the Lord through it all. Many people in your situation would have turned away from Him, and you have not! That's what matters.

Your sun shall no more go down, nor your moon withdraw itself; for the Lord will be your everlasting light, and your days of mourning shall be ended.
Isaiah 60:20

God loves you, and so does your family. I hope that you get to spend some time with grandchildren on Sunday, and that they bring happiness to all of you even in the midst of sadness. God bless you.

mindy said...

Thinking of you Debi!

I loved reading the posts your Dad left...they were always so comforting. Here's one of my favorites:

"Dearest Daughter Debi,
I do try to dwell on the being thankful for the time we had. If it wasn't for Bill, I wouldnt have Sean and Colin now. If it wasn't for Patrick, I wouldn't have Will and Reese. Patrick's last golf with me and Bill's working with me on real estate, are times I treasure. Yes I miss them a lot and I cried today explaining my bracelet to a couple of friends that did not know. All I can do is to love you with all my heart and pray to God for relief one of these days.
All my love.....Dad"

What a sweet man!! Praying for you everyday Debi-Mindy

Hilary said...

Praying for you. I hope you find comfort that they are together, watching over you every day.

Anonymous said...

I lost my brother in Nov 2011 and had a rough time with Father's Day too. Like, your son, my brother was a young father. He left behind a now 4-year old son and a 19 year old daughter who reconnected with us when he was in the hospital. I often think about how much he loved them and how they will never know him except through my family's memories. I have a lot of sad days. Keeping you in prayers.