Monday, January 11, 2010

OMGosh! It's Been a Year!

I have memories of being on the computer that morning of January 11th 2009. I was organizing Christmas.......this is where that is stored and this is what I need next year........I loved this recipe but didn't like that recipe. I even have a note to self that Bill wanted me to try some lighter healthier recipes next year. I was willing to try! Oh how I wish I had the chance to try!

The day was bright and sunny and I was anticipating a call from Bill or Patrick that they arrived in Chino any moment. I looked out the study window and noticed my sister and her husband pull up in the driveway. Hmmmmm? What are they doing here? When I opened the front door and saw the look on their face I knew! I just knew and I screamed like never before! NOOOOOOO!!!

It's hard to share that moment but on this anniversary of their death I need to be real! I can't believe that this is my life and I can't believe this has happened to my family! The struggle to make sense of it all permeates my being every moment. GOD.......what do I do now? What does this mean? WHY??????

I look back on this year and see God's presence. I see the comfort and love that He promises through all of you! You've been sweet, full of wisdom and amazing! Your prayers have felt like a blanket of comfort that wraps around my heart and soul. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! I leave you with this...........
We are hard pressed on every side but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. II Corinthians 4:8

22 comments:

jenni said...

Thinking of you and Erynn today, Debi. That quote is perfect.
xoxo

Kara said...

Thinking of you and your Family today. I am sorry every day your family has to suffer such a loss.

Karen said...

I got chills reading this today. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Erynn today...

Debbie said...

Praying for you, Erynn and your whole family today! You and Erynn have both been through such a horrific experience. The grace and strength you have both shown is and will be an inspiration to others.

What a perfect bible verse and glad that one year later it applies to you.

Anonymous said...

My thoughts are with you, Sean, Colin and Erynn and her children today. It's hard to believe that an entire year has passed.... Blessings and courage!

Jacki said...

Debi,
Thinking of You and Erynn today especially. Wishing you peace and strength for 2010!

The Estes Family said...

I am praying for you and Erynn and your whole family today!! I think of you guys ofter and say a little prayer when I do. Bigs hugs sent your way!!

Amber said...

I cannot imagine that moment and how it has changed your life since then. Thinking and praying for you always.

Glenda said...

Praying for you and your family. Praying for Erynn and her family. Hoping the New Year brings you all much love, joy, health and happiness. You all so very much deserve it! XXX

Caitlin said...

My great-grandpa died this past week and I have found comfort in this verse..

Proverbs 10:7 "good people will be remembered as a blessing"

I hope you do to.

avgypsy said...

{{{{{{{{{{{Debi}}}}}}}}}}}

Anonymous said...

Debbi,

You are in my thoughts and prayers. I know this year hasnt been easy for you but continue to know that you are thought of often.

Hugs,

Jess

cathy said...

Debi, I have been praying for you, Erynn and the family as today approached. May God simply carry you all right now. much love, cathy z

April said...

Thinking of and praying for you and your family today, Debi.

Jennifer said...

thinking of your family.
xoxo

Chelcie said...

Debi,
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers today and everyday.
XOXO

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and your family today!

Britt said...

Debi,

I know Erynn from an internet message board and just wanted to let you know, that the tragedy you both have to deal with, inspired many, many people to live life to the fullest and enjoy every moment, because you never know when it will be the last.

You both are such incredibly strong women!

My thoughts and prayers are always with you and your family.

*Hugs*

Kris said...

Thinking of you.
Kris

Anonymous said...

Remember that I, like GOD, am with you every day, forever. Love Dad

Jen said...

Debi~

My thoughts and prayers are with you much of the time! I am so sorry for what you have had to endure.

Life is strange, how it can turn on a dime. I had always heard that expression, but once it happened to me.....it sure held a whole new meaning!

My then 2 year old daughter was in her Papa's arms while crossing the street and both of them were struck by a car. My daughter flew out of his arms and landed on her head. She is now severely brain-injured.

I had just seen her 2 hours prior, I had just talked to her on the phone within the last hour....how was it possible??

I can't even imagine what you have been through. My heart goes out to you. I admire your strength!

Take care,

Jen

Anonymous said...

You are in our thoughts and prayers. Beautiful words that show sorrow yet also express awesome strength to keep looking forward.