Caught by surprise!

There I was with a burst of energy in the mood to do some cleaning and organizing. I like it when I feel like that!

You know how sometimes you don't see the clutter until you realize someone is coming over? That's just what happened but I felt up to the occasion?

The office was a mess. First I organized some stacks of papers and put them in files. Then I threw away some magazines that were taking up way too much space on my shelves. Books needed to be put back on the bookshelf from the last trip I made. I found things that were dated so long ago I forgot what they were for!

I looked over at the coat rack and noticed it was cluttered too. One by one I started removing first the hats and then a couple of jackets. BIG mistake........I fell apart! The sobs wracked my body. Wow, where did that come from? I guess I'm not ready to get rid of or move Bill's things. I'm just not ready. Nope, I'm not ready. I wonder when I will be?

My sweet boy

Only a mother understands the deep, deep pain of losing her child. Patrick was supposed to enjoy all that life had to offer and he was well on his way! He was a darling baby...............

Then a charming young man

Then he met the girl of his dreams

And they got married happily ever after

They started a family

Patrick was a great Da Da!

And then came the icing on the cake!

Where can I put the pain of it all? It explodes all over the place and it can be so messy! The tears are never ending yet the memories so precious. Where can one go for comfort but to the Lord? I do not know.

R/J Wedding 9/26/09

this gives you the idea of the mood

Will is wearing Patrick's vest and his belt buckle.

Check out Reese behind him with her suede cowboy boots

Erynn was very brave and gracious........Oh and beautiful!

This melts my heart!

Thanks for the escort Sean

The bride and groom

The bride and groom riding off into the sunset

An internal storm brewed inside of me leading up to the wedding. I was so worried that I couldn't do it without Bill or Patrick there. Either I would be crying the whole time or I'd just be blah. In fact in the days before I did have a few meltdowns and so I pleaded with the Lord to take my hand and sit beside me through this. He did! He met me were I needed and with the help of amazing family and friends I actually enjoyed myself. I could celebrate Sean and Jana, with a few tears mind you, and laughter! It was beautiful as you can see. Congratulations Sean and Jana!

One thing I love about Steamboat........crazy weather!

The calm before the storm!

We're watching our barn as the storm approaches

The rainbow was beautiful!

Here's the other side of the rainbow

Doesn't this look like a Van Gogh? I'm inspired

The next day brought hail and a little snow. Uh oh, a wedding is coming!

I love the weather! Especially when I can watch it from a comfortable spot. Here we were expecting something but not expecting the dramatic scene that unfolded before us. I'm sure the pictures don't do it justice.......it was crazy and fun! Little did I know that the real internal storm was yet to come! I'll keep you posted!