Before February ends

It's the month for love.
Besides everything, what did I love about you?
I loved......
to hold your hand,
our hikes in the hills,
getting compliments from you about the breakfasts I cooked for you,
the way you could fix anything,
checking the back of your hair making sure you covered your cowlick &
how you adored Will and chanted "Grandpa's Boy" over and over again when you held him.


I loved it when we......
talked politics,
made Home Depot runs together,
sat by the fire in the evening with a glass of wine,
went to lots and lots of baseball games,
traveled together to places all over the country &
realized at the same moments how blessed we were by our children!

I loved you when you........
complained that nothing was accomplished on your to do list, you only added things,
took care of me when I was sick,
exaggerated everything,
answered the phone with "Rooney Here!",
forgot things and blamed it on Old Timers disease &
fell asleep early almost every night.

I even loved it when you........
blamed the cleaning ladies when you couldn't find something,
said I was dumb for watching reality TV,
got aggravated because you couldn't reach me on my cell phone,
woke me up watching TV in the middle of the night because you couldn't sleep,
talked to yourself with hand gestures &
came back into the house time after time on your way to work forgetting one thing or another.

I loved your.......
generosity,
kindness,
common sense,
humbleness,
corny jokes &
positive outlook on life.

I miss you terribly!

I'm sad

Today I feel sad. For the first time I really didn't want to get out of bed. I had to finally force myself.

I read todays devotion from "Streams In The Desert".........

Chance has not brought this ill to me;
It's God's own hand, so let it be,
For He sees what I cannot see.
There is a purpose for each pain,
And He one day will make it plain
That earthly loss is heavenly gain.
Like as a piece of tapestry
Viewed from the back appears to be
Only threads tangled hopelessly;
But in the front a picture fair
Rewards the worker for his care,
Proving his skill and patience rare.
You are the Workman, I the frame,
Lord for the glory of Your Name,
Perfect Your image on the same.

Parts of this are very hard for me to swallow but I'll keep trusting.

What happened to "Happily Ever After?"

Once upon a time there was a girl. She grew up to be a head strong young woman who had all kinds of ideas about who she wanted to be when she grew up. She wanted to travel the world. There was so much to see and experience. She was quite independent!

Then she met the man of her dreams and she changed all of her plans. She wanted to marry him and start a family and she did. "She" became a "they" and together they raised three marvelous boys and had a really nice life full of fun and laughter. There was school, sports and lots of vacations to go on. Great memories were made with family and friends. Life was good. No, life was great!

On a horrible day not long ago all of that changed. The rug got taken out from under that girl while she was experiencing that great life. The man of her dreams along with one of those marvelous sons went to heaven and left her to cry rivers of tears. Her "happily ever after" was destroyed in an instant. Now she wonders what to do. She wonders who she is. She wonders if life will ever be good again.