Mother's Day

I can finally talk about Mother's Day. It was hard to celebrate the day with Patrick gone. Sean and Colin are away but I know they're there and will be coming home eventually. Not Patrick. 

Looking back each Mother's Day I remember all the joys of being a MOM raising 3 boys.1 missing isn't fair. In my favorite Mom book, "Love You Forever", I can't face the irony of the grown son rocking the Mom when she got old after she had rocked him as a baby. I won't have Patrick to help me when I'm old and he would've been good at it.

 

Happy Birthday To My Man!

I miss you so much, Bill that it hurts. Not that birthdays were that much of a big deal, this year it was because you're not here. The balloons were fun, we made 3 trips to the store because our cards were too heavy for lift off!  It would be nice to know that you received these messages. I love you more than all the stars in the sky and can't wait to see you again!

This is what we sent!

Up up and away!

We hope you can read these in heaven!

Happy Birthday Bill/Dad

Easter 2009

Made it through Easter without Bill and Patrick and it was very difficult. Focusing on the blessings helps somewhat but I still feel the emptiness. 

We had so much fun on Easter.......Bill was a champion egg hider! He would start thinking about where he was going to hide the $$$ eggs days before Easter. The boy

s would start thinking about the possible places to look way in advance too! Bill desperately wanted to outsmart them and usually he did. On Easter m

orning the competition would begin and even though the boys were older, on Easter morning, hunting for eggs, they were kids again! Bittersweet memories!

This year Will tried his hand at decorating eggs. We had fun trying to keep his hands out of the dye and keeping the eggs from being crushed!

Let's be honest!

I've decided that I've been sanitizing what I've been saying, trying to keep it light. The whole point was to be honest with my feelings as a way to get through this. So here goes........

IT SUCKS!!!! Every time I think of Bill or Patrick, I ache inside. 

The memories only remind me of what I have lost. 

I wonder when a smile or laughter will return when I think of them 

instead of tears?

Dancing Patrick

Proud of his fried turkey!

Thanksgiving prowess!

Who do they look like?

These pictures are so precious to me! I'm thinking that I see a little Reese in Patrick's baby pictures and some of Will in the toddler picture. Hmmmmmm?

Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints. Psalm 116:15

Boys will be boys!

Will prefers rocks and dirt to toys most of the time!

In my struggle to stay sane, doing anything with Will is a nice diversion.

But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles;they shall run, and not be weary; they shall walk, and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31

Reese Paytin Rooney Enters The World!

What a blessing new life is! 

Thank you Lord for this little girl and the 

Mommy that delivered her in uncomplicated fashion!